Cravings

Coming to you from Celestive Eve Vivian Fayth Shen

God I want to cut so bad, I want to see the cuts on my arms and watch the blood come out, and it's fucked that somehow that became something I crave. What kind of emo bullshit is this, I'm thirty fucking years old. But I want it so bad. And I can't do it. The place I want to cut the most is my arms, and people will see. The cuts won't have healed by the 24th and that's when I'm due to go in for plasma donation, and they might reject me. There's my thighs, but lately I've been getting bug bites there when I sleep, the house might have bed bugs, so I don't want cuts in an area that's already being feasted on by parasites.

So yeah, I have a craving and I can't satisfy it and it's making me feel so much worse.