Ache

Coming to you from Celestive Eve Vivian Fayth Shen

The urge to cut is strong, but I know I will be so disappointed in myself if I give in. I have nothing to gain but new scars, and I know that it's not worth it, but the urge is still there, and like I said it's strong.

I know what a mistake it is to let my sense of self worth get so tied up in another person, how they view or treat me, but I can't seem to stop it from happening. So here I am again, and I'm angry, but mostly at myself.

Nobody asks for this power over me, I just give it to them.

I don't like or care about myself enough, so I have to cling to anyone that somehow forms a high opinion of me, and when that falls apart, I fall apart with it. It's not their fault. It's mine.


But ignoring a friend for days and not telling them why isn't cool.